I am sorry to report I have fallen off the fat camp wagon.
My chili turned out pretty good though. But I don't have enough room in my freezer. It's sad. But I now have food all over the place. That I'm not eating. I have fresh veggies and fruit in the fridge I'm not eating too. It was easy to buy the stuff and cook it, not so easy now to actually eat it.
I've had prescription problems with my sleep drugs, so my sleep has been very messed up. I have the pills now, so I'll be better. And I'll hop back on the wagon! I was supposed to be off tomorrow through Friday, but now I'm going in to work tomorrow. I will take Thurs and Fri off to start the exercise portion of fat camp. And eat my food.
I forgot to take down my weight on Sunday. I will do that tonight and report in tomorrow. According to the doctor scales, I'm 177 lbs. My scales weigh a little less than Dr. scales, so I'm not sure where that really leaves me. But I certainly haven't lost any. My goal at first is to just change my habits. The weight loss will come with that, and once my habits are changed I can focus more on losing the weight. Baby steps...
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Friday, July 27, 2007
July 27, 2007
Today was "food preparation day" at the "fat camp"! First I had to take Tyler to the groomers, and spent the morning searching for a black jacket. Unsuccessful in that, but I did find a couple pairs of khaki pants that I'm in need of. I had two chicken tacos from Chipotle. Tyler's hair cut is good. He's cuddly.
It was just too hot out to go for much of a walk. We did a little. I got a good workout climbing the stairs again with the stuff I had to get (cleaning stuff mostly--one would think I'm an obsessive housekeeper. On the contrary, I hate to clean. So I try to find the best cleaning products I can to make things easier.)
Then it was cooking time. I don't really care for cooking either. And I'm not very good at it. I love baking, and I can bake cookies with the best of them. But I am a little nervous about how my food that I cooked today will turn out. The chili is already messed up, because the recipe I was using is weird. I couldn't finish it today because I didn't have the right ingredients to make it something I might actually eat. I put too much garlic salt in my spaghetti sauce. The chicken is fine, but I haven't turned them into enchiladas yet. And the roast and veggies that have been in the crock pot all day still aren't done, and the smell is making me sick so I probably won't eat it anyway. The irony is that I've got all this food so I won't be eating cereal three meals a day anymore. And I had cereal for dinner :) The pineapple is good though...
Tomorrow is another day!
It was just too hot out to go for much of a walk. We did a little. I got a good workout climbing the stairs again with the stuff I had to get (cleaning stuff mostly--one would think I'm an obsessive housekeeper. On the contrary, I hate to clean. So I try to find the best cleaning products I can to make things easier.)
Then it was cooking time. I don't really care for cooking either. And I'm not very good at it. I love baking, and I can bake cookies with the best of them. But I am a little nervous about how my food that I cooked today will turn out. The chili is already messed up, because the recipe I was using is weird. I couldn't finish it today because I didn't have the right ingredients to make it something I might actually eat. I put too much garlic salt in my spaghetti sauce. The chicken is fine, but I haven't turned them into enchiladas yet. And the roast and veggies that have been in the crock pot all day still aren't done, and the smell is making me sick so I probably won't eat it anyway. The irony is that I've got all this food so I won't be eating cereal three meals a day anymore. And I had cereal for dinner :) The pineapple is good though...
Tomorrow is another day!
Thursday, July 26, 2007
July 26, 2007--Day One
Today was the official first day of "Fat Camp"!
So it didn't start all that well. The alarm went off at 6 a.m. and I said "No, I'm on vacation!" (I spent the entire day at work yesterday, telling everyone 'I'm on vacation!'. I guess I just couldn't let it go) and turned the alarm off going back to sleep. I woke up at 8 AM and then my body and mind coordinated to say, nah, I'll stay here. Tyler agreed, he didn't move at all. My mind finally decided it was time to get up at around 9:30, and spent the next 45 minutes fighting my body to actually get out of bed. It was really pitiful. And neither Tyler nor Midnight bothered to be my backup alarm today. What good are pets if they don't get you up when you need to?
But when I did get up I actually put on some workout clothes and took Tyler for a walk! After I showered and dressed, I pulled out the recipe books and made a grocery list. Today was "Food Gathering Day" at the Fat Camp. Since my fridge died a couple months ago, my fridge and freezer were pretty bare. And what was in there wasn't all that great. Silly me, thinking that at noon on Thursday there wouldn't be many people at Hy-Vee. Apparently, everyone in town decided to take vacation today and go grocery shopping. Gah. By the time I finished I was very overwhelmed, overstimulated, and just plain cranky. And I forgot a bunch of stuff. So I came home and unloaded. There are only two things I dislike about my apartment: the funky smell only I can smell, and that it's on the third floor. I had almost $200 worth of groceries to bring up. It was heavy. Three trips of heavy bags up three flights of stairs. Good thing I'm at "Fat Camp". But I still had the dilemma of having forgotten a bunch of stuff. I decided to head to Aldi's to see what they could offer me. If you've never been to Aldi's, don't go for the first time alone. There are certain rituals and rules you must obey. Thankfully, my mother is an Aldi's fanatic and I am well versed in the rites of Aldi. But I don't go there often, so I was a little rusty. I think I pissed some folks off. But it wasn't my fault, my staff texted me right as I walked in. I can't ignore that!
Anyway, I make it through the line, and I even remembered to bring my own bags! I was bagging up my stuff and saw I got the wrong kind of chicken and no fruit. Except a pineapple. I was very excited to find pineapples at the Aldi's store. So I put the stuff in my car and marched right on back to the store. I got me the right chicken, but they didn't have any fruit of the frozen kind. By this time I was back to being overwhelmed, overstimulated and cranky, so I bought one of their insulated bags and put all my frozen stuff in it, and went back to Hy-Vee to get the frozen fruit I needed. Go figure, the frozen fruit and veggies are in the frozen dessert and pizza aisle, which I had skipped with great pride in myself earlier. I went home and lugged all this stuff up the stairs again. Took forever to put it all away. I didn't realize that a homemade "Fat Camp" would be so expensive! But if my fridge hadn't died on me, I wouldn't have had to spend so much. And after I make all this stuff, I'll have food in the freezer for a very long time. So it'll balance out.
I took Tyler on another walk. It is so frigging hot! It's not really hot, but it feels hot. And it sucks, because there's a pool down the block that we walk by every day now, and there's never anyone in it. I'm always so jealous of this pool. But it's part of the Homeowners Association in this area, and as a renter, I don't belong :( Today there were lots of people there. I wanted to wander in and just jump in. But I didn't. But I think I"m going to go to a pool more. I've not been to a pool in at least a couple years. But I really want to go.
So anyway, that was my day at "Fat Camp". I had frozen pizza for dinner--I have to eat what I have, even if it's bad for me, and if I take this slow, it'll go over better. I also baked some orange rolls I had in the fridge, but they didn't taste very good, so I'll toss those out. I'll cook up some of the good things tomorrow. I have a bunch of vegetables that I"m not sure what I'm doing with, and a whole lot of spices that I grabbed--there was a woman literally pushing me out of the way in the spice aisle today. I don't know anything about spices, I couldn't remember what I already had, and I couldn't take the time to grab my list. So I grabbed anything that looked like I might need it. My food will be flavorful at least.
Tomorrow's schedule begins with taking Tyler to be groomed (which will make walking easier) and shopping. I still need some non-grocery supplies, and I have to hunt again for a black jacket. I seem to have spent most of my adult life looking for a black jacket. I found one online at Torrid, but we don't have a store handy, and according to the sizing chart, my chest is a size "0", my waist is a size "1", and my hips are a size "2". So I'll shop tomorrow, and if I don't find one, I'll order one and hope. I will pick up Tyler in the afternoon, go for a walk, come back and cook. I also need to vacuum. My personal "Fat Camp" is slow progress, but to change one's lifestyle, one should take it slow.
Oh, and I should add that I noticed on our walk this afternoon that it was not as difficult for me to make it through as it has been. Only a few days, but I'm already in better shape! Yay me! I'm going to stretch now. My number one supporter and nagstress, Carol, informed me that I should spend tonight stretching. So I shall.
So it didn't start all that well. The alarm went off at 6 a.m. and I said "No, I'm on vacation!" (I spent the entire day at work yesterday, telling everyone 'I'm on vacation!'. I guess I just couldn't let it go) and turned the alarm off going back to sleep. I woke up at 8 AM and then my body and mind coordinated to say, nah, I'll stay here. Tyler agreed, he didn't move at all. My mind finally decided it was time to get up at around 9:30, and spent the next 45 minutes fighting my body to actually get out of bed. It was really pitiful. And neither Tyler nor Midnight bothered to be my backup alarm today. What good are pets if they don't get you up when you need to?
But when I did get up I actually put on some workout clothes and took Tyler for a walk! After I showered and dressed, I pulled out the recipe books and made a grocery list. Today was "Food Gathering Day" at the Fat Camp. Since my fridge died a couple months ago, my fridge and freezer were pretty bare. And what was in there wasn't all that great. Silly me, thinking that at noon on Thursday there wouldn't be many people at Hy-Vee. Apparently, everyone in town decided to take vacation today and go grocery shopping. Gah. By the time I finished I was very overwhelmed, overstimulated, and just plain cranky. And I forgot a bunch of stuff. So I came home and unloaded. There are only two things I dislike about my apartment: the funky smell only I can smell, and that it's on the third floor. I had almost $200 worth of groceries to bring up. It was heavy. Three trips of heavy bags up three flights of stairs. Good thing I'm at "Fat Camp". But I still had the dilemma of having forgotten a bunch of stuff. I decided to head to Aldi's to see what they could offer me. If you've never been to Aldi's, don't go for the first time alone. There are certain rituals and rules you must obey. Thankfully, my mother is an Aldi's fanatic and I am well versed in the rites of Aldi. But I don't go there often, so I was a little rusty. I think I pissed some folks off. But it wasn't my fault, my staff texted me right as I walked in. I can't ignore that!
Anyway, I make it through the line, and I even remembered to bring my own bags! I was bagging up my stuff and saw I got the wrong kind of chicken and no fruit. Except a pineapple. I was very excited to find pineapples at the Aldi's store. So I put the stuff in my car and marched right on back to the store. I got me the right chicken, but they didn't have any fruit of the frozen kind. By this time I was back to being overwhelmed, overstimulated and cranky, so I bought one of their insulated bags and put all my frozen stuff in it, and went back to Hy-Vee to get the frozen fruit I needed. Go figure, the frozen fruit and veggies are in the frozen dessert and pizza aisle, which I had skipped with great pride in myself earlier. I went home and lugged all this stuff up the stairs again. Took forever to put it all away. I didn't realize that a homemade "Fat Camp" would be so expensive! But if my fridge hadn't died on me, I wouldn't have had to spend so much. And after I make all this stuff, I'll have food in the freezer for a very long time. So it'll balance out.
I took Tyler on another walk. It is so frigging hot! It's not really hot, but it feels hot. And it sucks, because there's a pool down the block that we walk by every day now, and there's never anyone in it. I'm always so jealous of this pool. But it's part of the Homeowners Association in this area, and as a renter, I don't belong :( Today there were lots of people there. I wanted to wander in and just jump in. But I didn't. But I think I"m going to go to a pool more. I've not been to a pool in at least a couple years. But I really want to go.
So anyway, that was my day at "Fat Camp". I had frozen pizza for dinner--I have to eat what I have, even if it's bad for me, and if I take this slow, it'll go over better. I also baked some orange rolls I had in the fridge, but they didn't taste very good, so I'll toss those out. I'll cook up some of the good things tomorrow. I have a bunch of vegetables that I"m not sure what I'm doing with, and a whole lot of spices that I grabbed--there was a woman literally pushing me out of the way in the spice aisle today. I don't know anything about spices, I couldn't remember what I already had, and I couldn't take the time to grab my list. So I grabbed anything that looked like I might need it. My food will be flavorful at least.
Tomorrow's schedule begins with taking Tyler to be groomed (which will make walking easier) and shopping. I still need some non-grocery supplies, and I have to hunt again for a black jacket. I seem to have spent most of my adult life looking for a black jacket. I found one online at Torrid, but we don't have a store handy, and according to the sizing chart, my chest is a size "0", my waist is a size "1", and my hips are a size "2". So I'll shop tomorrow, and if I don't find one, I'll order one and hope. I will pick up Tyler in the afternoon, go for a walk, come back and cook. I also need to vacuum. My personal "Fat Camp" is slow progress, but to change one's lifestyle, one should take it slow.
Oh, and I should add that I noticed on our walk this afternoon that it was not as difficult for me to make it through as it has been. Only a few days, but I'm already in better shape! Yay me! I'm going to stretch now. My number one supporter and nagstress, Carol, informed me that I should spend tonight stretching. So I shall.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
July 22, 2007
I spent the better part of the weekend reading the Harry Potter book. However, I did walk Tyler a few times, and I ate some fruit today!
I haven't been able to let go of my sleeping pills. I tried, and laid awake for a couple of hours before deciding it was hopeless and took the pill. I'm calling my insurance tomorrow to make sure the sleep study is covered by my insurance. If it is, I'll do my best to overcome my addiction. If it's not, screw it, I'm taking the damn pills, they aren't hurting anything. On the contrary, I certainly feel better having slept. I'll keep you posted :)
I haven't been able to let go of my sleeping pills. I tried, and laid awake for a couple of hours before deciding it was hopeless and took the pill. I'm calling my insurance tomorrow to make sure the sleep study is covered by my insurance. If it is, I'll do my best to overcome my addiction. If it's not, screw it, I'm taking the damn pills, they aren't hurting anything. On the contrary, I certainly feel better having slept. I'll keep you posted :)
Thursday, July 19, 2007
July 19, 2007
I spent some money on the cause yesterday. I got myself a Weight Watchers cookbook. It has a lot of basic recipes for basic food, which is what I need. And since it's WW, they have the "healthy" ways to cook things. So now I have to figure out what all I'm going to cook, and I'll have a good ole time!
My gums are bleeding again, which is a recurring problem. Since all I've been eating the past week is cereal and cookies, I told myself I have scurvy and made myself get some fruit. And a new mechanical toothbrush (one of the cheapies, not a good one. that'll be a good Christmas present someday). I haven't eaten it yet. I also got some low acid orange juice a while ago, I think I'll drink some tonight.
My friends the Jacksons told me about TOPS (Taking Off Pounds Sensibly) tonight. It's a weight loss support group that they go to each week. It sounds really cool, I added their website here on my site. Unfortunately, I can't go to the meetings of the St. Joseph chapter. Monday mornings aren't good. But that's OK. Maybe I'll start my own chapter. That would be motivating.
I'm telling everyone I know about this whole "fat camp" idea. The problem with this whole thing is that I'm not sure when I'm going to be able to actually do this. I may have to take random vacation days and do an extended fat camp instead of an intensive one. That might work better anyway. The big thing will be to start exercising. If I can do that, I'll be good.
Thanks go out to Terri, Susan, Cindy, and my mom for all the tips for healthier ways of being! I really am blessed for all the people in my life who support me!
My gums are bleeding again, which is a recurring problem. Since all I've been eating the past week is cereal and cookies, I told myself I have scurvy and made myself get some fruit. And a new mechanical toothbrush (one of the cheapies, not a good one. that'll be a good Christmas present someday). I haven't eaten it yet. I also got some low acid orange juice a while ago, I think I'll drink some tonight.
My friends the Jacksons told me about TOPS (Taking Off Pounds Sensibly) tonight. It's a weight loss support group that they go to each week. It sounds really cool, I added their website here on my site. Unfortunately, I can't go to the meetings of the St. Joseph chapter. Monday mornings aren't good. But that's OK. Maybe I'll start my own chapter. That would be motivating.
I'm telling everyone I know about this whole "fat camp" idea. The problem with this whole thing is that I'm not sure when I'm going to be able to actually do this. I may have to take random vacation days and do an extended fat camp instead of an intensive one. That might work better anyway. The big thing will be to start exercising. If I can do that, I'll be good.
Thanks go out to Terri, Susan, Cindy, and my mom for all the tips for healthier ways of being! I really am blessed for all the people in my life who support me!
Monday, July 16, 2007
July 16, 2007
I took my "before" pictures today. They will remain on this site until this site dies. Aren't they awful? But that's how I look every day!
I added some links too. I'm not on Weight Watchers, but I do get help from them a lot. I have been on the plan before, and it worked when I stuck to it. I may go back to it once I get myself to eating better in general. The Fibromyalgia Network is also a helpful link, because having FM really affects my life all the way around. And Richard Simmons, that just goes without saying. I might join his Clubhouse even.
Let's talk about Fibromyalgia. I'm in a lot of pain and tired today. The weather is wanky, I'm dehydrated and I ate too much sugar, on top of stress and not enough sleep. Every muscle and joint in my body hurts. My vision is blurry and I'm so tired I cant' think. It's not always that bad. But I do always hurt in my legs, back and arms, and I'm always at least a hint of tired. Those are good days. The tricky bit about FM is that no one really knows what causes it or why it happens, and there is no cure. There is no one treatment, and most of the treatments that are out there barely help the symptoms. I'm on sleep medication, which helps me sleep obviously. But it's still not good enough sleep, and it doesn't help the pain.
The good news is that one surefire way to treat FM is a healthy diet and regular, low impact exercise (stretching is good--that's why I enjoy Pilates). Of course, it's very hard to will yourself to exercise when it hurts, and to cook healthy when you're too tired to fix a bowl of cereal. That's why a lot of FM patients are overweight. I can do it!
I added some links too. I'm not on Weight Watchers, but I do get help from them a lot. I have been on the plan before, and it worked when I stuck to it. I may go back to it once I get myself to eating better in general. The Fibromyalgia Network is also a helpful link, because having FM really affects my life all the way around. And Richard Simmons, that just goes without saying. I might join his Clubhouse even.
Let's talk about Fibromyalgia. I'm in a lot of pain and tired today. The weather is wanky, I'm dehydrated and I ate too much sugar, on top of stress and not enough sleep. Every muscle and joint in my body hurts. My vision is blurry and I'm so tired I cant' think. It's not always that bad. But I do always hurt in my legs, back and arms, and I'm always at least a hint of tired. Those are good days. The tricky bit about FM is that no one really knows what causes it or why it happens, and there is no cure. There is no one treatment, and most of the treatments that are out there barely help the symptoms. I'm on sleep medication, which helps me sleep obviously. But it's still not good enough sleep, and it doesn't help the pain.
The good news is that one surefire way to treat FM is a healthy diet and regular, low impact exercise (stretching is good--that's why I enjoy Pilates). Of course, it's very hard to will yourself to exercise when it hurts, and to cook healthy when you're too tired to fix a bowl of cereal. That's why a lot of FM patients are overweight. I can do it!
Saturday, July 14, 2007
July 14, 2007
My side hurts. I can no longer sit on my couch comfortably, because of the fat around my stomach.
Something else I enjoy are the grilled cheese sandwiches at Sonic. I had one today. With a giant cherry coke and mozzerella sticks. However, I did resist the urge to go to Hy-Vee and get a package of cinnamon rolls. I'm really hungry for a cinnamon roll. I think I might have cinnamon rice cakes. But the problem with rice cakes is that they hurt my gums. During my fat camp I'll have to find an alternative to them.
:)
Something else I enjoy are the grilled cheese sandwiches at Sonic. I had one today. With a giant cherry coke and mozzerella sticks. However, I did resist the urge to go to Hy-Vee and get a package of cinnamon rolls. I'm really hungry for a cinnamon roll. I think I might have cinnamon rice cakes. But the problem with rice cakes is that they hurt my gums. During my fat camp I'll have to find an alternative to them.
:)
Friday, July 13, 2007
July 13, 2007
My latest weakness that has begun this summer is cherry Coke from Sonic. I will miss these. I will miss pop altogether. I did stop drinking pop for about three weeks in February. I lost ten pounds. No pop is key.
My latest round of blood tests and head scans came back fine. There is nothing wrong with me immunologically. I think I spelled that wrong. But anyway, I'm not diabetic, I don't have lupus, my thyroid is fine. The next thing is the sleep study, on August 16. I don't know how that will work, because I can't sleep period. How am I supposed to sleep all hooked up to wires, with people watching me, in a strange place? And no drugs? I do not know.
My lifestyle change will also likely mean I will begin to feel better naturally. I am starting now with trying to disconnect myself from work once I leave. I'm not stressing over crap that happens during the day, either. I'm just going with the flow and not resisting. Here I am, I'm doing what I do, whatever. Calm.
My latest round of blood tests and head scans came back fine. There is nothing wrong with me immunologically. I think I spelled that wrong. But anyway, I'm not diabetic, I don't have lupus, my thyroid is fine. The next thing is the sleep study, on August 16. I don't know how that will work, because I can't sleep period. How am I supposed to sleep all hooked up to wires, with people watching me, in a strange place? And no drugs? I do not know.
My lifestyle change will also likely mean I will begin to feel better naturally. I am starting now with trying to disconnect myself from work once I leave. I'm not stressing over crap that happens during the day, either. I'm just going with the flow and not resisting. Here I am, I'm doing what I do, whatever. Calm.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Fat Camp!
I'm creating my own fat camp in a couple of weeks. I'm tired of being fat. So I'm going on vacation, here, and exercising my brains off and teaching myself to like good food. After that, I'll keep it up. This is my public fat chick diary, to publish my efforts and keep myself accountable. I want lots of people to read it too, because the more people watching me, the more I'll feel like I need to stick to this. So come back often!
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